My Beautiful Baby Boy

It has been a long while since I have written and a lot has happened since then. My little baby was born and he is the best gift God has EVER given me. He is two and a half almost three months old. He giggled for the first time the day before yesterday and it was the cutest thing, it just melted my heart. Of course when I caught it on camera he decided to stop. He has been developing so fast I never realized how fast things happen. Caleb rolled over at two and a half weeks old and currently holds his head up, rolls over, talks really loudly, murmurs I love you, and smiles. He loves when we stand him up, sit him up, and talk to him. I love putting him in his bouncer because he loves bouncing and talks a bunch. God has blessed us tremendously by putting Caleb into our lives, He has used him to cause tremendous change in our lives. Since having Caleb I have had a deeper desire to follow after God and watch what I say I want to be the best mom I can be for him. I am so thankful for God instilling such a strong trust in me to raise this baby in love and admonition of Him. The day Caleb was born was the most surreal and fantastic day of my life. Labor was long and intense but as soon as the nurse lifted him up above my tummy for me to see him I fell in love instantaneously. He was incredibly tiny and he smelled so warm and sweet. When the nurse laid him on my chest I could not stop staring at him. Caleb's face was puffy, his little lip was puckered out, his eyes were so bright and big, he stayed curled up, he was warm, and he was silently aware. He made tiny noises and after minutes started to cry the sweetest cry. His cry was the sweetest sound I have ever heard.

The Life Inside Me

So today I woke up took a pregnancy test and it was positive! Well that was a shock. Quinton and I have been trying for about a year now but we kept praying that God would allow it to happen in His timing and I guess he thought right now was perfect timing. I saw the 1st line appear and the 1st line never appeared every other time so I was freaking out. I ran downstairs to find my friend Mandy because I heard the t.v. on and she wasn't there so I knocked on her door. This was me, "Mandy! You got to come check this pregnancy test for me!" I thought my eyes were playing tricks on me. I thought it was funny because I have been a month late before and I wasn't pregnant and this time I was only like a week late. So far my tummy just feels a little weird and I am more hungry but those are the only symptoms I am having. As far as thoughts though I have a bizillion running through my head. What will we name the baby, what gender will it be, will I be a good mom, I hope my relationship with God grows stronger, I want to pray with the baby everyday, I wonder if it will be healthy, my parents are going to be grandparents (weird thought), my grandparents are going to be great grandparents (stranger thought), where are we going to be when we have the baby, how will delivery go, is this really happening, what do I need to eat, how big am I going to get, how will everyone react, I can't believe this is happening, will I be able to keep the sex a surprise until delivery, what symptoms will I have, how will Quinton react, I need to start saving more money, and I just am in awe of how many thoughts I can have at once. I was so excited it was so hard to hold it in until 1pm when I could tell Quinton but after that I was not able to keep quiet. The best reaction we got so far was from Quinton's mom. I can't wait to see what this adventure holds. I have already read tons of the book What to Expect When Expecting and I can't believe how much there is to do to take care of the baby inside me. EEKKK! I AM SO EXCITED!